Living under your wife skirt, your wife is controlling, she wears the pants. I have been dealing with this for the last 11 years. Toxic family, anxiety, depression, mental health. I have been dealing with this for the past 21 years. All of this has kept me from pursuing my dreams of becoming a hip-hop artist, movie director and actor. I would have never thought of going into a professional studio and record a song until 2021. Or write a half hour short film musical. I feel like a veteran without the resume. Im a legend! In my own head with my voices. I do talk to myself but I’m not that crazy. 21 plus years in the making. Ever since I watched Jay-Z Street's is Watching back in 99. I wanted to make film, music, and clothing. Just like the Jigga man himself. Man has it been that long. Crazy how time fly's. So much BS I have been thru. People laughing at me. From my own mother and step dad. From not being supported from my sister that looks at this business like its not a real job. Just stop that’s not real success. Success is having a college degree. Like me, Im success. Well that’s your definition of success I guess. I have always written lyrics and scripts. Spent countless years alone in my room just writing and erasing projects in front of my computer. Without anyone really knowing what I was really doing. Mom just thought I was sleeping majority of the time. Having your license suspended for 8 years, going to jail, nobody wanted to hire me, or a girlfriend makes it easy to spend a lot of time alone. So all I had was my room and computer through the 2000’s. While everyone around me moved on with their own life. Having kids, or moving up in their own career. Having a lot of time to myself I began teaching myself how to write scripts. Looking up Quentin Tarantino Pulp Fiction script. Knowing the movie in my head and reading it on paper made it easy for me to write my own script. How he describes the action and scenes I pictured it in my head. Teaching myself how to edit videos. Writing rap lyrics.I did this for years. And nobody knews about it. Just a few family and friends. Confidence can take you far in life. The one thing I lack. Im very creative. That’s not the problem. Is confidence, fear! I have no idea why that is. I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it go away. You see I was the type of individual that if you tell me I ain’t nothing. Then deep down I would probably believe you. And my self-esteem will just be low. But since meeting my wife in 08 and having her in my corner. Building a family together. She has giving me confidence. Finally in 2019 I was able to push toxic family away and finally tell myself that I am a dope artist and the world has to see what I can create. Because I feel like I’m a dope ass hell and can write great rap songs and write scripts at the highest level. No Matter the Figure is my 2nd professional song I recorded. It is dedicated to my beautiful wife. Who has never laughed or put me down from pursuing my dreams. So here I am finally coming out! Letting the world know I am an entrepreneur and I am dope. I have always loved rainbows. They represent hope and are biblical to me. Im a straight man but because of my ignorance I was always scared to wear anything with rainbows. Because if you did people would assume that you are homosexual. I really just liked the rainbows period. Like I love fashion, music and film.
No Matter the Figure
"Mental Abuse is real, Toxic Individuals will always make you feel like its always your fault. Removing my Mother, Sister and childhood friend from my life has been one of the greatest decisions I have ever made." Benjamin Diaz
Roberto recently gets fired.
Roberto sees Nicole and expresses how he feels about her
Roberto expresses to Nicole how he feels about his relationship with his father .